Give me the Song and I'll sing it von moko-chan (J2/RPS) ================================================================================ Kapitel 6: Wicked Game ---------------------- Song: Chris Isaac – Wicked Game Wicked Game Jared was lying on his bed, trying to blink away the tears. He should have known how this was gonna end. He should have known better than to think he had anything to offer that would interest someone like Jensen. Jensen had liked him as a friend – the younger guy who smiled all the time and didn’t seem to have a care in the world – as a lover Jared had absolutely nothing to offer him. But Jared had loved Jensen for so long; they had been the best of friends for so long that Jared had hoped against hope that he would have a chance – that Jensen would at least think about the possibility of loving him back. The world was on fire And no one could save me but you It’s strange what desire makes foolish people do I never dreamed that I’d meet somebody like you And I never dreamed that I’d lose somebody like you No, I don’t want to fall in love This love is only gonna break your heart But Jensen had pushed him away, had looked at him in a way he’d never done before, and Jared had known this was never gonna be. Jensen would never love him back. Jensen thought he was a freak for kissing him – probably hated him by now for daring to do so. Jensen wasn’t a homophobe, he wasn’t like that, but he was straight, and Jared felt a sting in his gut at the thought that one stupid kiss had ended everything between them. Jensen would move out – of his house and his life, and Jared could consider himself lucky if he would talk to him on set. Jared had overstepped a line with kissing Jensen, and he couldn’t remove the image of Jensen from his mind after he had pushed him away. The emotion in Jensen’s green eyes had been so intense that Jared had feared for a second that Jensen would hit him. No, I don’t want to fall in love This love is only gonna break your heart With you … With you This love is only gonna break your heart Jensen hadn’t hit him, had just stared at him, and Jared had turned around and run away. And now he was lying in his bed, above the covers, and clinging to his pillow like he was five years old again. No wonder, Jensen didn’t want him. Jensen wanted someone mature, someone who wouldn’t kiss him without warning and then run away because he was scared of the consequences. Jensen wanted someone special, Jensen deserved someone special. Jensen wanted a girl. Jared’s lips escaped a little sob and he curled his body into a ball of trembling limbs. The ache in his chest was worse than ever before, and he realised with a shaking laugh that this was what a broken heart felt like. And Jensen hadn’t even moved out yet. From now on, Jared would wake up to an empty house. There would be no adorably grumpy housemate in the mornings, no one to make him dinner that didn’t come out of a box. Jensen would never play the guitar for him again, would never entertain him with his absent-minded singing. Jensen would never ever allow him to hug him again. What a wicked game to play … To make me feel this way What a wicked thing to do … To make me dream of you What a wicked thing to say … You never felt this way What a wicked thing to do … To make me dream of you And I want to fall in love This love is only gonna break your heart Jared thought back to their first hug, to the strange tingle in his stomach when he had given Jensen free, and Jensen had looked up to him with a twinkle in his eyes, thanking him for not breaking all of his ribs. He’d told the story to Chad, and Chad, not being a dick for once, had earnestly warned him to be careful. “I hear he’s nice enough – but kind of complicated. Don’t let him hurt your big doggie-heart, ok Jay?” Jared had laughed at that and promised Chad to be careful, and the next time he hugged Jensen, he discovered how good he smelled – Maybe it had been a done deal right then and there. No, I want to fall in love This love is only gonna break your heart With you Maybe Chad had known Jared would fall in love with Jensen – and tried to warn him about that. Chad could be a douche, but he had more experience than most other guys his age, and he knew Jared remarkably well. Maybe Chad had known Jared wasn’t as straight as he’d thought himself to be before he met Jensen. Jared wiped his hand across his tear-stained face and tried to get a grip on himself. This wasn’t the end of the world even if it felt like it was, and there was no need to be crying like a little girl. He would get over this, he had to. Jared heard the door behind him creak open, and hastily closed his eyes. His back tensed at the sound of footsteps on his plush carpet, and the soft sound of someone else breathing in the room made his head spin. The world was on fire And no one could save me but you It’s strange what desire will make foolish people do I never dreamed that I’d love somebody like you And I never dreamed that I’d lose somebody like you No, I want to fall in love This love is only gonna break your heart[/i Jensen sat down on the bed beside him, and Jared held his breath. He was so afraid of what Jensen would say to him that he kept his eyes shut and pretended to be somewhere else. He did not care if that was childish – he hadn’t behaved very mature all day. “Jared,” Jensen said and his voice was remarkably void of loathing. “Open your eyes. Look at me.” Jared, being a good boy, did as he’d been told, removed his hand from his face so Jensen could see him, and Jensen reached out to him and caught one of Jared’s tears with his thumb. “You dumb-ass,” he whispered, and Jared felt knew tears well up inside of him. No, I want to fall in love This love is only gonna break your heart With you This love is only gonna break your heart “You can’t kiss somebody without warning and then make a run for it, Jay,” Jensen said as he gently stroked Jared’s wet cheek. “That’s considered very rude. You should give the kissed person at least a chance to react.” Jared just sniffled, and Jensen smiled down to him. “You thought I would be angry, yes? You thought I’d throw a tantrum because you kissed me?” Jared managed a meek nod, fresh tears streaming down his cheeks, and Jensen swallowed and lay down right next to him. “Stop crying, Jay. Please don’t cry. I’m not mad at you. I’m never mad at you, am I?” With you … With you This love is only gonna break your heart No I … This love is only gonna break your heart This love is only gonna break your heart Jensen’s head was lying right next to Jared’s, his eyes were honestly smiling, there was the warmth in them Jared had been attracted to right from the beginning, and Jared felt himself relax. “You’re really not mad?” he choked out, and Jensen pulled him into a gentle embrace. “The only reason to be mad would be if you’d kissed me out of a crazy whim and don’t feel like doing it again.” Jared felt his breath hitch, and the pain in his chest vanished. He put his arms around Jensen, pressed close to him, and the bear-hug forced a little laugh out of Jensen. “Be so kind and don’t break all of my ribs, ok Jay?” Nobody loves no one The End Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)