It's always morning in my mind, my little lamb, my pet.
The next day was terrible. Nearly everything that could go wrong was going wrong.
We went to the harbour and after asking when the next ship would leave a man was telling us that this day no ship would leave this goddam harbour. It was hard to understand him but I think I heard something about a girl that was drowned while playing near the ships.
I was shocked but also a little annoyed. I hated these silly girls.
Johanna's mind didn't change. She was just nodding and turning away.
There was a thing I found even more shocking. I didn't understood why she was taking it so easy. The day before she had cried because she wanted to know about her parents and now she did nothing.
I followed her.
"Why didn't you say anything? Yesterday you were upset and today everything is just fine?!"
"Don't worry."
"What? I really don't understand you..."
"We have to wait. It's alright for me."
I was getting some kind of angry with her.
"Maybe", she said, "it's better not to know..."
"Why, for Chrissake?", I asked getting in a little rage.
"It's nothing"
We both fell into a pondering silence.
Why was she lying? I'd always been honest to her.
I had always cared for her when she was feeling bad.
I fell out of all heavens.
My sweet Johanna was changing in a way I did not understand.
