Series: DN Angel
Character: Satoshi
Author's note: I'm in a depressed mood today, so I wrote this.
just the thoughts of Satoshi. I'm not really good at this, I think I'm more
into writing yaoi ^__^
~Rina~
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Emotions
Emotions are weaknesses. I learned for myself to not show them openly.
Pain.
My real father, not the man I have to call it.
He was violent. He abused my mother.
My mother was weak. I despised her. Because of hear weakness.
Even though he beat her up constantly, she was too weak to leave him.
He never touched me. He was afraid of me, I guess. Of that demon inside of me.
Hate.
I never hated anyone. I was the best in everything I did.
No one could be compared to me. I educated from university with 14 years.
I had no reason to hate anybody.
I didn't hate my father. He just took advantage of the weakness of my mother.
I didn't hate my mother. I only despised her.
I don't hate the man I have to call father. He's just doing his job.
Fear.
I didn't have to fear anything. Or anyone. I never had to.
This demon in angel's shape, living inside of me. He saved me every time someone came near me.
I didn't fear him. He admired me too much to do me any harm.
There was no one I had to fear.
Love.
Then I fell in love.
With that clumsy boy. I don't even know why.
This is the first time I feel such a deep emotion.
And along with this, come the other ones.
Pain.
Because I know he will never love me back.
Hate.
Of that girl who has what I'm longing for.
Fear.
Because now that demon gets possessive and he might hurt the only person I ever loved in my life.
Emotions are weaknesses.
Nothing else...
