Blue …
Katsuki sat on the toilet, staring on the pregnancy test in his hands. His eyes were fixated on the blue strip on the display. He gulped heavily and his hands started to shake. He could feel a stinging sensation in his eyes, as tears collected in them and spilled over.
His vision became blurry and he hoped that they would wash away the blue color, but of course it was just wishful thinking. The color stayed and so was the slow realization that he was really pregnant.
He was pregnant. He would have a child. He wasn’t even nineteen yet … he hadn’t even finished school. He didn’t have a job, or money to care for a child. What was he supposed to do? He couldn’t work as a hero anymore … He had to tell Aizawa and the others, that he couldn’t participate in the training any longer, he would only endanger his child, if he continued!
With shaky legs he got up from the toilet, he had to grip on to the sink. Still with tears streaming down his face, he stumbled out of the bathroom and he walked over to the big mirror.
His hand moved over his eyes and cheeks and he wiped the tears away. He then pulled his shirt up to look at his still flat stomach. He rubbed his hands over it and he remembered how he had looked, all bloated and everything. He would look like that by the time of their graduation …
Katsuki was almost in trance while he looked at himself in the mirror, when it suddenly knocked on his door. He flinched heavily and eyed the door warily at first.
But then he could feel and smell Eijiro in front of it and he blinked multiple times. He made himself move somehow, and he walked over to the door. He opened it and he could see a very distraught Kirishima in front of it. Tear streaks ran down his face and Katsuki knew that he was positive too.
Wordlessly, the redhead lifted the test strip – blue it showed. Katsuki nodded and he hugged Eijiro. “Fuck …” the redhead mumbled against Katsuki’s skin.
“Yeah you can say that out loud … What do we do now?” Katsuki asked.
“I don’t know …” Kirishima hugged him tighter.
Recovery Girl looked at them and sighed. She had again confirmed the pregnancy of those two. Aizawa was in the room too, he pinched the bridge of his nose. This was a god damn disaster. There were still about three months of school now. This would be problematic.
“What do you plan on doing?” He asked. “Do you want to keep the babies?”
“Of course, I won’t kill a child, least of it my own” Katsuki grumbled. “I know it is the worst time right now … but I won’t kill it just because I was stupid.”
“Yeah, same for me, abortion is not an option” Eijiro covered his flat stomach with his hands.
“Okay, I’ll talk to the principal on how to continue from now on. First of all, you need to talk with Midoriya about it. I’ll arrange the session with the therapist.”
And that was it. Now they were sitting here in a circle, the therapist, Katsuki, Izuku and Eijiro. They hadn’t talked about anything just yet. Izuku wasn’t ready to face their presumed wrath. He didn’t know that they were positive as of yet.
The therapist eyed all three of them with their keen eyes. They encouraged Katsuki to start.
Deku was still frightened to face them, fearing they would accuse him. The past week he had thought about it a lot, his fears had gotten worse. His thoughts had wrapped themselves around the possibility, that he had, in fact, raped them. This thought still made him sick to his stomach. His upset mind spiraled deeper, all the stress from before, the thoughts that came up after the talks with the therapist, it dragged him deeper and deeper into that mindset.
Katsuki cleared his throat. “Deku …uhm … we were at Recovery Girl’s this morning …” he started, his voice was shaking and he had a lump in his throat.
Deku looked up, he gulped visibly. “What did she say? A-are you …?” He couldn’t end his sentence.
“Yes … we both are … pregnant” Katsuki mumbled.
Izuku gasped and he leaned back in the chair, he leaned his head back and stared at the ceiling. “Shit …” he mouthed.
They all stayed silent after that. They gave Izuku time to process this.
“My god, what have I done” slowly he leaned forward again. His gaze switched between Katsuki and Eijiro. They must hate him! He had ruined their chance to become heroes!
“It’s not your fault alone, Deku, it was my idea and I dragged you and Eijiro into it” Katsuki said. Eijiro stared to the ground, Deku had seemingly spaced out.
“Y-you won’t be heroes … I ruined your chance of that …” he mumbled. Katsuki noticed that his breathing got heavier.
“Hey, everything will be okay, we will be heroes, just a little later” Katsuki tried to reassure Izuku, but himself and Eijiro too, that everything was alright.
“No! Nothing is okay! Look what I did to you! And to you Eijiro! I mated and impregnated you. I gave you my venom and I took advantage of you … I fucking raped you and I enjoyed it while doing so … I’m a fucking piece of garbage …” He started to ramble in a panic.
Both, Katsuki and Eijiro looked at him in shock. Katsuki felt guilt creeping up his throat. Why was Deku feeling like that now? It hadn’t been his fault. It was all Katsuki’s idea in the first place.
“Wh-why are you saying that, Deku? Y-you’re not a rapist! I wanted it, did you forget? I wanted to have sex with you!”
“But Kacchan, you were already in heat! I should have known better. I should have said no and instead called a teacher. But I didn’t! And Eijiro didn’t even want to do it in the first place and I made him do stuff he didn’t like! And all the names I called you … All those fucking names!”
“I-Its okay, Izuku!” Eijiro piped in too. “Even though I wasn’t a fan in the beginning, I wanted it too, even before my own heat had kicked in. I don’t think that you raped me!” Eijiro tried to convince him.
“See? No one thinks that!” Katsuki forced a smile on his face.
“No … Kacchan, you don’t understand! The name calling, the degrading, the humiliation … I did that because I was fucking angry!” Izuku started.
Katsuki flinched. “W-what?”
“I was fucking pissed at the whole situation with the war, with AFO, with Shigaraki, with all the assassins that tried to take me out. Before I found you I had to deal with another one of them. I was livid when I saw both of you, looking for me. And then … you wanted sex, I had no control over myself. All the past shit bubbled up in me, the things you said and did during middle school. The stress from the situation at hand … it all exploded into anger towards you! I wanted to hurt you. I wanted to humiliate you, to keep you small, like you did with me, during middle school, I called you names but … but you complied so easily! I got carried away and I started to call Eijiro names too, even though my anger wasn’t even directed at him. I’m so fucking sorry that I used you! I’m sorry that I did that to you! I gave you my venom because I knew you would comply even more! That you would lose your lucidity and that I could take even more advantage of you …”
Both Katsuki and Eijiro were stunned by this confession. Eijiro bit his bottom lip, he could see now, why Izuku would think that he had raped them. It was honestly terrifying to hear. This Izuku was so much different from the Izuku he knew. Eijiro had pressed a hand on his mouth. “I … what happened between you two? During middle school?” Eijiro asked. Katsuki had never told him, what went down between them.
“I was a bully, a total piece of shit” Katsuki murmured. Tears were streaming down his face. “I hurt Deku every day, because … even though I had the better quirk and all, and I should have been superior to him, I felt that I was not … and I didn’t want to see that. That’s why I tried to keep him down, that’s why I started to bully him … I told him … that he should take a swan dive off a roof …”
Eijiro stared at Katsuki in shock. He knew that Katsuki could be quite unpleasant sometimes, that he yelled a lot about killing and murder … but he never thought that he had said something so horrific to Izuku …
“And Izuku, I realized that I never apologized for that! And I am so sorry! I totally get why you would be mad at me. But please, don’t think that you raped us. I wanted it! All of it! And the mating, I wanted that too! Maybe not at this age, but I wanted it eventually!” Katsuki confessed.
Izuku sagged in his chair. He looked down at his folded hands, he was crying, too. Eijiro could see, how he clenched his fingers.
All of a sudden, the alpha slid down from his chair and he knelt in front of them. He lowered his head to the ground. “No, no matter my reasons and own feelings, I should have never taken advantage in this way of you. I feel absolutely terrible for everything that happened, and just because I couldn’t control myself, I ruined your hero career. I ruined the two of you! I forced this mating mark on you and I can’t make it up to you. I only can beg for your forgiveness.” He apologized.
Eijiro and Katsuki were baffled and in complete disbelief. No, this was so wrong. Izuku didn’t do anything, Katsuki thought. He knelt next to him. “Oi … lift your damn head. I told you, you did nothing wrong!” His voice quivered. “Right, Eijiro?”
The redhead joined them on the ground too. “Yeah … I agree. We don’t think that you used us at all! From what I remember, you took great care of us. And yeah, I know, the situation is crappy right now, but we will overcome this! I am not mad at you! How could I when I willingly joined? I wasn’t even in heat when I accepted the offer! My mind was clear and I wanted this too! Please, don’t feel so bad!”
“Yes, and I basically begged you. Izuku, I love you, ever since we had this talk after All Might’s retirement, my feelings for you started to grow! I dreamt so many times that you would sleep with me. I wanted it too and yeah, even though we are in a shitty situation right now because of it, I totally agree with Eijiro! We will overcome this. We will find a way to make it work! But please, don’t take all the blame!”
Slowly, Izuku lifted his head. “You’re not mad at me? You forgive me?”
“There is nothing to forgive! You did nothing bad! We all wanted it” Katsuki reassured him.
“Yes! He’s right. Before the others mentioned it, the thought that this could be rape, didn’t even cross my mind. It was fun for the parts I can remember. So yeah, I wanted it, I promise.” Eijiro robbed closer on his knees and he laid a hand on Izuku’s shoulder. Katsuki mimicked him.
The three of them sat there for a while, the omegas tried to comfort Izuku while he still apologized over and over again. After about ten minutes, all of them sat back on the chairs. They were somewhat calmed down again, faces still wet with tears.
Izuku was still in shock about the fact that he would become a father of not only one child but two or possibly more, from different people. It was a hard to swallow pill for sure. “God … I still can’t believe it” he mumbled. “A-and you are sure you want to … keep them?”
“Of course, abortion is out of question!” Katsuki said.
“Do you not want the children?” Eijiro asked.
“I want them! I couldn’t live with the thought to abort a child, I … I just want to make sure you two are okay with that too. It is your body, and your decision and I would accept it, if you say you didn’t want it …” he explained.
“No, don’t worry, we’ll keep them.” Eijiro confirmed.
Izuku nodded. “G-good” he was in thoughts. His face all of a sudden became horrified again. “Then I have to go out and find AFO and Shigaraki … I don’t want them to target you and I am sure they will do it eventually.”
“You will find them, I’m sure of that! I trust you!” Katsuki smiled at him. “I mean you even tamed the future number one hero, so AFO and Shigaraki will be a walk in the park.” He tried to joke.
Izuku let out a chuckle, even though he wasn’t really amused. He exhaled deeply. He would be a father … It sounded so surreal … he would need time to adjust to that.
