SF-A2-Miki: Mein Weblog

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You: hi...

Stranger: hi

You: i dunno how to deal with it

Stranger: with what?

You: with everything... my gender... everything

Stranger: what's wrong?

You: my mother is a witch and i dunno what i am

You: help me

Stranger: okay, what do you want me to do?

You: do you know where maka is? i want to see her...

Stranger: no

You: hm :(

Stranger: sorry

You: i dont know how to deal with this

You: ... its okay

Stranger: anything you want to talk about?

You: i dunno... ask me something...

Stranger: uhm, who's maka?

You: my best friend... she left me... i cant find her... and i dont know what to do

Stranger: oh

Stranger: how old are you?

You: 17 and you?

Stranger: 16

You: gender?

Stranger: girl, you?

You: i guess im a boy, but my mother is wearing me dresses... i dont know how to deal with this

You: its so confusing

Stranger: you are one? or you feel like one?

You: i dont know...

You: maka is always saying ima boy... but the dress...

Stranger: what do you like to do?

You: i dont know... choose, please

You: ... oh, do you know? my blood is black

Stranger: what do you mean?

You: i mean what i say... its black

Stranger: why is it black?

You: its my mothers fold, she did experiments with me...

Stranger: like what?

You: experiments with the dark blood

You: to resurrect the kishin, ya know?

Stranger: what's kishin?

You: hes... an evil person... hes kinda insane and... scary...

You: and my mother want me to be a kishin too... i had to eat souls

You: a lot of innocent souls...

Stranger: how?

You: i had to kill them to get their souls

You: my black blood did eat them... ragnarök

Stranger: where are you from?

You: usa, u?

Stranger: canada

You: im livin somewhere in the nirvana of the usa... death city... do you know it?

Stranger: no

You: hm, thats too bad

Stranger: why?

You: death city is a nice place... and there are lots of peoples with their weapons which can also turn into humans!

You: you know, maka is a meister - a person with a humanic weapon - and her weapon soul is a scythe :)

Stranger: oh it's a game

You: no its not

Stranger: is it a religion?

You: nope, not even something like this

Stranger: i'm confused

You: im also confused

You: dont you know how to deal with this?

Stranger: no

You: hm, too bad

You: hmm, how are you?

Stranger: okay

You: same here

You: do you also want black blood?

You: you just have to ask my mother

Stranger: no thanks

You: hm, okay

You: but you can do bloodneedles with the dark blood, ya know?

You: anyway, you have to visit death city someday? :)

Stranger: what are bloodneedles?

Stranger: maybe

You: well, needles out of blood

Stranger: oh

You: you want to see a pic of me?

Stranger: ok

You: http://images.cosplay.com/photos/19/1922568.jpg
you see the blonde girl? thats maka :) the other one is me!

Stranger: lovely

You: yeahh, i like maka

You: oh, and on my head, thats ragnarök

Stranger: :)

You: hes evil, even if he doesnt look like...

Stranger: you're really interesting

You: you think so?

Stranger: yes!:)

You: why?

You: i dont think im something special

Stranger: i don't know you just are

Stranger: you are very special!

You: hm, if you think so

You: i should tell maka that i met a nice person like you here :)

Stranger: :)

Stranger: thank you

You: no problem :)

You: ah... by the way... that are my parents... my dad likes to dissect rare animals... thats cruel! but it matches my mum...
http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b11/jodar7/SE__Requiem_for_Sanity__by_amyschn.jpg

Stranger: oh

You: dont you think thats... bad?

Stranger: yes

You: hm...

Stranger: anything you want to know about me?

You: do you like me?

You: because i like you...

Stranger: yes i do

You: i dont know how to deal with this...

Stranger: ?

You: i dont know how to deal with girls... maka was the first girl i did like...

Stranger: oh

You: would you like to visit me in death city?

Stranger: yes

You: you have to come to the shibusen, the school for weapons and their meisters, i live there

Stranger: ok

You: something else you want to know?
because i dont know what i should ask you...

Stranger: nope, you can ask me anything

You: hm...

You: i dunno...

Stranger: you don't want to know anything about me?

You: hm... is you mum also a witch?

Stranger: no

You: lucky you... wish mine wouldnt be one...

Stranger: you should come live with me instead

You: that would be great... i guess

Stranger: ?

You: but i dont live at my mums place at moment... she isnt at the shibusen, but she was

Stranger: oh

You: you know, maka, my best friend does want to kill my mum for what she done... i dont know, but somehow, that makes me sad...

You: i should hate her because she did experiments with me but i cant

Stranger: that's understandable

You: you think so...?

Stranger: yes

You: everyone says i should hate her instead

Stranger: she's your mum, that's going to make it hard to hate her

You: youre right... but i dont like her... i dont know how to deal with her

Stranger: maybe stop seeing her and talking to her

You: i cant... she does appear... sometimes

Stranger: hmm...i don't know then

You: i remember when i was five yrs old... she wanted me to stab a bunny... i did refuse and she put me away into a dark room and didnt let me out of there...

Stranger: thats awful

You: ... but she did it that often, that i stopped refusing and did it...

Stranger: oh

You: am i a bad person...?

Stranger: no

You: but i think so...

Stranger: you aren't

You: i killed so much people and eaten their souls...

Stranger: did you want to?

You: no... but in no time it was like a habit...

Stranger: then you are not a bad person

You: hm... maka did say something like that not long ago...

You: maybe youre right...

Stranger: :)\

Stranger: :)

You: ... anyway... whats your name? i didnt asked yet, i guess...

Stranger: topaz

You: oh, thats a nice name, i like it... somehow

Stranger: thank you

You: im chrona... sorry if you didnt want to know...

Stranger: i did want to know, i like it

You: really...? i dont think my name is as nice as yours

Stranger: i like yours better

You: hm, i think yours better :)

Stranger: :) any more questions?

You: um...

You: hm... do you have icq?

Stranger: no, what is it?

You: an instant messenger like skype or msn

Stranger: i have msn

You: hm, but i dont have it yet... im sorry...

Stranger: that's okay

You: just a question... would you download icq? i dont want to lose the contact to you and id like to introduce you maka someday...

Stranger: don't you have email?

You: i dont check my inbox often...

Stranger: ok

You: hm... what should we do now?

Stranger: uhm...i don't know

You: but you dont want to download icq, right?

Stranger: i'd rather not

You: okay, its fine

Stranger: sorry, i'm going to miss you when this is over

You: ill miss you too :(

You: youre such a nice person

Stranger: so are you

Stranger: now what?

You: hm... i can give you my mail-adress... even if i dont check the inbox often

Stranger: ok

You: ill look at it more often next time

Stranger: ok

You: IDontKnowHowToDealWithThis@gmx.de

You: i didnt know to name my mail-adress, so... yeah...

Stranger: ok, mine is -censored- (<- Adresse wurde freundlicherweise gestrichen)

You: oki :)

Stranger: :)

You: hm... guess i have to leave soon...

Stranger: oh okay...:(

You: maka will phone me every moment, we are phoning everyday

You: but ill send you an email soon, okay? maybe ill download msn tomorrow

Stranger: ok

You: id be happy to write with you again :)

Stranger: ok!

You: hm, i check the email, okay? i heared, lots of people give wrong email in chats like this... but i dont think youd do something like this!

Stranger: ok

You: ah, maka just called me and i told her from you... she sounds jealous...

Stranger: why?

You: ya know, i just have the feeling she very likes me... maybe she loves me... but i dont know to deal with it

Stranger: talk to her

You: but how...? i really dont know how to deal with this

You: maybe she will hate me if i say something like this...

Stranger: be honest with her, tell her you don't know what to do

You: umm...

You: how do i begin with a matter like this...?

You: thats so... embaressing...

Stranger: i don't know,i'm not good with awkward situations

You: aww...

You: maybe i ask her some other time... i just dont know how to begin with...

Stranger: i really wish i could help though :(

You: but... ya know... shes kinda cute and so on but i dont really know how to deal with it...

Stranger: you're so sweet she's lucky

You: ... oh, i dont know how to deal with this

Stranger: what?

You: i think im blushing...

Stranger: awe...why are you blushing?

You: thats embarrassing... i think...

Stranger: is it? sorry

You: no, its just fine... but i dont know how to deal with compliments from a girl...

Stranger: it's okay, i don't know how to deal with them from anyone

You: okay... same here... if someones praising me, i never know how to deal with...

You: hm... i guess, i have to leave now... thanks for the talk, it was fun!
ill send you an email tomorrow and i hope we can be friends :)

Stranger: okay, bye

You: see ya!