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Senseless 13
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For several moments nothing happened. Neither Dark nor Satoshi moved the slightest bit before suddenly Dark made the first attempt to talk to the boy.
"Satoshi..." Dark reached out to touch the cheek of the blue haired boy but Satoshi turned his head away.
"What do you want to talk about, Dark?" Although he kept his voice calm the thief heard the pain Satoshi tried to hide. Dark silently cursed himself. Of course the boy was hurt. He watched the man he loved sleeping with someone who had tortured and haunted him and done everything to steal his life away. Why on earth should he even understand why Dark had acted this way?
"I'm..." Dark struggled for the right words. He wanted to explain the reason why he had slept with Krad, but somehow all his explanations sounded poor and hollow in his ears.
"I'm waiting, Dark." Satoshi crossed his arms in front of his chest. His eyes were cold and unforgiving and the thief shuddered. He looked so much like Krad... Since the curse took place for the first time somehow Krad's looks were resembled in every newborn member to the Hikari family. Dark had never thought about it before but it made him shiver once more. Were there anymore effects the curse had brought with it than Dark ever realized?
"I want you to know that I love you, Satoshi." Dark could see that his words did nothing to ease the hurt in Satoshi's eyes and inhaled sharply before he continued quickly. "I love you more than I ever thought I would but you see...what's between Krad and me...I can't give him up. He needs me."
There. He had said it. Silence grew between them and when Dark once more tried to touch Satoshi his hand was slapped away.
"I never want you to touch me again. Ever."
"Satoshi, let me explain!"
Dark tried again but Satoshi only narrowed his eyes and hissed viciously. "Explain? What for? I understand perfectly well."
"No, you don't! Please, let me tell you why..." Dark was practically begging for the other boy to hear him out but again Satoshi interrupted him.
"Why you cheated on me? There's no need to. It's not as if we were going out together." Satoshi saw Dark wince and smiled coldly. "Krad told me what happened between the two of you. I know what you have done to him."
Dark's eyes widened in shock. Satoshi knew? He knew about his failures and the guilt he was carrying for so long now?
"When you know everything..." Dark swallowed hard. What he wanted to say was drowned in a sea of guilt when Satoshi threw him an angry glance before he grabbed the blanket and slung it around his body.
Hardly suppressed anger and pain mixed in his words. "You're the one who's responsible for all the pain Krad inflicted on me."
"No..."
"As far as I'm concerned you'll never talk to Krad again. Be sure I'll find a way to seal him away. Forever. And when he is gone maybe you'll vanish too. And if not...the knowledge of what happened to Krad will destroy you. At least I'm hoping it will kill you to know that you've failed your precious Krad once again. That's all I'm living for. I nearly had forgotten what you are. A useless thief living at the expense of your innocent host. And now..." Satoshi pointed to the door. "Get out."
"You can't do that!" Dark sounded so wounded and pained that Satoshi immediately felt better.
"I can't? Should I tell you what Krad did to me when I was younger? The first time he raped me I was eight years old and do you know what? He called it love. He abused me so many times I cannot count them all. And you tell me you're choosing him over me? You can't be serious!"
Dark tried to say something but Satoshi wasn't finished.
"I nearly believed that you really love me. I hoped that finally there would be someone who frees me from the pain and loneliness I'm living in since I was born. My parents died when I was only three years old and the man who adopted me never cared for me. To him I am nothing than a pastime. Someone to show off to his friends and business partners. And Krad... Do you think my life was easy?"
"Sato-chan..."
The blue-haired boy took one step nearer and the thief backed away involuntarily. The merciless hardness in Satoshi's face made him wish he had kept his mouth shut.
"Never. Call. Me. Petnames. Unless you want me to make you regret it."
What have I done? Dark lowered his gaze. He wanted to take his words back but there was no use crying over spilt milk. One look at Satoshi showed him that the boy wasn't willing to listen. Slowly he made his way to the door. Satoshi's voice stopped him on the threshold.
"All my life Krad told me that it was predetermined to live without love. I never wanted to believe him. For some time you made me think he was wrong." The door slammed shut behind the thief.
"Satoshi." Dark whispered brokenly. He leaned his forehead against the wooden surface of the door and when he heard desperate sobs from the other side of the door he felt his heart breaking.
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